i try to suppress any feelings i have for anyone obvi
but i think in accordance to my religion i try to suppress it even more due to the fact that it is impossible to love another woman
like it is just unlawful and therefore not possible for me
so idk i hate liking ppl
for a few years tho i had an on a off thing for u and it resurfaced this year
i dont even know if i can call it love
call it internalized homophobia or wtv but i feel like i will never even get a gf or anything at this point even in college
i mean the one i want to go to has 80% queer ppl so maybe i have a chance?
but that is just me, yk?
you are spectacular, i do not think you would believe it
and i do not think i am mentally prepared for a relationship, it feels too soon and i cannot even have friends normally for a straight year
it is annoying at best but please be flattered that a girl with deep feelings for u recognized that because that is hard for her
her is me btw
and u made that somewhat of an enjoyable experience for me
so thank you
and i will miss you to hell and back btw